I Shall Find You

Dearest Tank,

I may have never known

The way you blinked your eyes

Or heard the sound of your pleading cries..

Never felt you tug my hair

Or call me “Aunt Ace”,

But I will know you

In the depths of a sacred place.

 

Human things could not contain your spirit,

But God's creation always will and

In the quiet of the morning

I shall find you still.

 

You are butterfly wings in the sky

The wind that rustles the leaves

Rain drops from the clouds

Caged birds finally set free.

 

Sun rising over the mountains

Sun setting over the hills

A child's laughter in a silent room

The moment that gives us chills.

 

The perfect blue of the ocean

Skipping stones into rivers deep

Footprints in the sand

The longing that makes us weep.

 

Stars shining bright upon us

Only seen on the darkest nights

The stretch of radiant blue skies

A backdrop for the eagle's flight.

 

You are the tiny bud that we wait upon

When spring replaces frigid snow

You are the colors of the rainbow

And every seed we sow.

 

You came to teach us many things

Of time will reveal

But today I know you're teaching me

To sit quietly and feel.

 

I'll know you in our children

And in my sister's eyes

I'll know you in the broken place

Where angels hear my cries.

 

You are in the music

And the soft whispers in our ears

You are the hope

That replaces all our fears.

 

I will know you and I will learn,

All that you came to teach

For an angel doesn't leave us,

He's always in our reach.

 

Someday I'll kiss your lips

And rejoice to see you real

With eyes that I can't possess now

But which heaven will reveal.

 

Still I know you are with us

Always in our hearts

And if we search for you

We shall never be apart.

 

In honor of my nephew, Tank Matthew Evans, May 10, 2013.